SAGAR-THE DIAMOND I LOST

Few years ago, some group of gays started organizing "house gay Parties” in Mysore. I had got the invitation in PR. so i went with a lot of expectation add in thinking that it’s an orgy. Only when i went there i got to know that it was a promotional event for easy money making jobs a'la RMP. Even though it was exclusively for gays, j dint find anyone interesting. i had gone with my friend. So was just chit chatting with him.

At the end of this gay meeting, a guy was standing outside the house smoking. My friend instantly noticed him and talked to him. Late i got to know he is also gay and was scared to come inside add it was his 1st time into all these.

His name was SAGAR. My God. What a beauty. He was so fair, and well built. I could literally imagine his perfect gym built body from his appearance.  My friend introduced me to him and we got well together.

Whole going back home, it was already 10pm and at that time i stayed in hostel. So i had to hurry up. On the way, 1st was my friends hostel, later sagar's hostel and then mine. So after dropping my friend, sagar got cozy with me and asked if i want to do something. But i didn't have a place for that, neither did he. But i also didn't want to leave that opportunity slip away. So I made up my mind and took him to my hostel. Let me tell you, I was in a big trouble. But I was dumb bound by him.

So I took him and told my roommates that he s my high school friend. Later I took him to a single room in the hostel which was empty. I tell you, it was so amazing making out with him.

Next day morning I went to drop him back to his hostel. Half way, we stopped for his smoke. There we sat to chat up. It was 10am when we sat there, when we checked our watch again, it was 4pm!!! We were so much lost with ourselves. We were sitting in a park and it was raining. What a romantic place. I was so much into him at that time. We decided we will stick around as friends.

Later I couldn’t control and I used to meet him almost every day.  We had sex in weird places. In his college library, in an old warehouse, outside a parking lot.

One weekend I invited him to my native, Bangalore. He came over. We had a very nice time that time too. I even wrote a poem and proposed to him. But he said things are going a bit fast. So let’s take things slow. So I had to wait.

Back in mysore, we used to meet regularly and chat etc etc. by then I had lost my patience. Or maybe I was again getting attracted to my 1^st love [that is another story which wil be told]. Since I was getting closer to my 1^st love, I started ignoring sagar which was my big mistake. At this point of time, sagar also started loving me which I was really unaware of.

So one fine day, I showed my stupid attitude and left him dry and shocked [in his words]. Back in my life, my 1^st love was working very well with me. So I didn’t bother about him. But again, my very very unstable 1^st love started acting weird. So it broke up. So I was left dry and shocked. So I was looking someone to fill that gap.

This story took place around 1year back. From then till now, many things have happened. Sagar got a new boyfriend who is such a sweetheart to me [contradictory]. Sagar had some bitter incident which had cost him his life. But he was saved. And many many things. But even now, I regret for what I did. Had I been more mature 1 year back, I would have had the sexiest guy of Mysore as my boyfriend so that whole mysore would have envied. Now I’m here. All alone.

Its not that I dint search for a boyfriend, but in the process of searching, I realized that I;m not yet ready for  it. Let me shape up my life, physically[I’m ugly right now], mentally [my mind is full of my studies], economically [let me start earning, my career has promised me big bucks], and socially [I should learn to dance, get reliable friends]. Then I will automatically get a boyfriend. What do ya say?